Sannah---I guess I never really went longer then 5 minutes discussing this issue cuz first thing first you have to acknowledge that its an issue before you tackle it. & I think I actuallly have an amazing Dad so I feel guilty for focusing on one extreme mishap that happened such a long time ago. Dont get me wrong, my dad gets flustered\ticked off a lot but, I think that was the only time it went to that extreme.

Thanks pachyderm, ladyjrnilist and granite 1

Granite1---hmmmm....i guess it was terrifying or at least scary, i have a hard time acknowledging that it was.

Rainbow8--thanks---i guess i think my therapist won't validate it, cuz I don't.

Peaches100 -- I'm not glad you had to go through so much pain but, I am glad to know that someone understands what it feels like to expect comfort from a parent and not receive it. i'm sorry life dealt you a rough hand of cards in this department.
I hope you've continued to find healing and hope.

Elieen2010 and JBMOMG---thanks i think thats somethig we have to learn to do, think of our pain in the eyes of that little girl or little boy we were at the time, cuz in this moment, as I am an adult, its easy to not validate it but, years ago....it felt big...cuz i was small enough to feel this way. makes sense.

Wepow thanks, it was so long ago, does it really take this long for such a small wound to heal? although, everyone says its big i've spent most of my life saying, just forget it, it was such a long time ago, just forgive...but, that hasnt ever helped me...trying to say these things. i wonder if i acknowledge it and go through it, if the outcome will be different???

Everyone=====tons of hugs.