Thank you brokengirl and itspeaks. I have just been struggling so much with my eating lately and how I feel about myself its crazy and it's so overwhelming. I should be studying for finals this week but instead I'm obsessing about what I'm eating and if my eating to much will make me fat. Maybe it is my bipolar acting up and maybe I don't have an ED.

A little more information on how I eat or how I feel:

When I eat I feel horribly guilty as if I don't deserve the food I'm eating. What makes it worse is being around my tiny sister who ways less than me but is taller than me. I go through moments where I try to starve myself as long as I can (I usually break around dinner time when my boyfriend takes me out to eat), then I feel horrible after eating. I enjoy the feeling of emptiness. It makes me feel light and carefree. Eating even the slightest amount of food sends me over and I get upset. I actually started crying the other day because I ate to much in one day. My boyfriend was concerned and didn't really know what to do. I'm kinda lost. I see my doctor on the 14th of this month though so I guess I could bring it up with him.

Also I feel like I might have body dysmorphic disorder. I feel that I am fat and ugly even though I am told daily by not only my boyfriend, that I am pretty. I just can't seem to see it. Can anyone give me some help on this?