3 months, one week, two days ago, I promised myself that I would never self harm or OD in ANY way, ever again. I said to myself 'at the rate I'm going, I'll be able to achieve nothing. I realized I'd never have a boyfriend, never have a job, never be who I always promised I'd be. I realized that carrying on the way I was, I would be dead. Never able to do anything I'd always wanted to do.

3 months, one week, one day and it's 07/12/2010. It's 3 months, one week and two days since I last self harmed in any way or OD'd. It's 3 months, one week and two days since I made the decision that changed my life forever and turned it around completely.

It's not been an easy journey. It's been one of THE hardest roads I've ever had to travel down. But it's such a rewarding and fulfilling journey to take. No-one said it'd be easy, but then again, No-one said it'd be hard, either. That's why it's been harder than expected, because I didn't know how hard it'd be. That part kinda sucks huh...

But being uncertain of how hard it would be and how long it would take and how many hurdles I'd have to get over, has prepared me for the worst. My bad past prepared me for much worse than I have already suffered.

But. All I came here to say, really, was that...

I am finally able to say...

I am proud of who I am. I am proud of what I've done. I am proud of the roads I have traveled. But most of all??? I AM PROUD OF ME.

I have never been able to make it 3 weeks, let alone 3 months.

And.

It's only as easy as you make it. It's only as easy as you prepare yourself for.

Lastly...

TAKE THE DIVE LIKE I DID. IT'S THE BEST THING I EVER DID!!!

Lots of love and hugs to all.

Peace out



Thank you, all you wonderful, wonderful PC'ers.