I'm so terribly sorry for your loss, Gracey. It was close to around this time last year my ex boyfriend (whom I was still bestfriends with) was brutually murdered over stupidity. I know the grieving is hard to deal with, but I promise with time it'll get a little easier to deal with each day. My thoughts and prayers are with you and his friends/family. May you all find some sort of peace and comfort during this horrible time.