I remember this feeling. I loved him so much. He was my everything. But he had a way of wandering away from me. I pined over him for 3 years. I cried, I was miserable, all I wanted was him. Then he was gone. He moved away I don't know where too. Then I had to move on. A year later I met the man who became my husband. We just celebrated our 15th wedding anniversary. It has been rough at times but he was been committed to our relationship even when it sucked as I have been committed to him. I don't think the jerkwad that I pined over would have been as good for me. He couldn't even stick with me more the 6 months at a time, he was always thinking of the other girls out there but was enjoying the great, always available sex we had together. I know it hurts but try to move on. There are other beginnings.
Zen
*she takes a breath and thinks that story hurts as much to tell now as it did a decade ago. man that sucks. Wish I was the one who just up and left then it would have been a triumph instead of a defeat. Bah who cares.*<font color=blue>

Progress is nothing but the victory of laughter over dogma.--Benjamin De Casseres