To be honest, in the beginning I find it quite simple.. but then around two weeks into it I suddenly get a strong urge to run, to get out of there. I'll fight it for a few days.. but the more I fight the stronger it gets and I end up abandoning class and staying home. It's been happening since 6th grade and I'm not really sure why it happens at all but it does.

When I was in an alternative school (where I met this friend) I managed to go everyday.. but the main difference was that my high school has 1500+ students and alternative had 18 at the most that was split into two groups for 70% of the day. I don't find it that hard to concentrate.. however I get very.. uncomfortable when public school teachers force you into groups. My English teacher this year forced us into this everyday and I hated it. I freeze up when I'm in groups; I don't look at anyone, say anything, and I have no opinion on anything, even if my classmates urge me to participate I'm just a zombie.