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ThePainNeverDies · Dec 08, 2010, 04:34 AM

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That's awesome!!!

I've struggled with SI for a few years and OD-ing for about a year, so I know how hard it is to stop. Fortunately I'm working on making myself mentally determined enough to stop again, for good this time. I'm hoping to make a post like this someday soon

Congratulations on how far you've come, if you've made it 3 months you can make it atleast 3 more. Before you know it it'll be 3 years

One question though, was there anything in particular that helped you stop?

Not Emo;

I'm so glad you have such a positive outlook on it and the fact that you say you'll be making the same post one day shows that you are determined. It's really lovely to see that.

What in particular helped me? Well, first of all was me breaking up with my boyfriend at the time. He was a hindrance, not a help. Then, it was the last OD I took that made me fall down the stairs and screw up my shins, leaving me in hospital totally out of it because of what I took. When I came round 2 days later and spoke to the nurse, I was freaked. So that made me decide. Then seeing that my (new) boyfriend, who was a friend at the time, and a few others, had sent me worried messages begging me please not to die. The day after I came out, my boyfriend asked to meet me for the first time, so I thought 'He'll never want to be with me if I'm like this' and I really wanted to be with him. I knew I was falling in love with him.

So, it was a number of things, but mostly, it was my own strength and courage to face up to all of my demons instead of being dragged down by them, that helped.

FlawlessImperfection;

It has been amazing so far, the freedom I have without self harm. I got a tattoo with many, many meanings, a few months ago. I've found that doing good things for myself also makes me less likely to self harm. Twice so far I have had my nails done, I recently had a pedicure and a new hair style. Everyday my boyfriend (now been together 3 months!) reminds me how much he loves me, how much of an inspirational person I am and what a golden heart I have. I always used to hate myself, but now I'm beginning to learn the act of self love and it's beautiful.

And you! Well done for 2 years!! Wow... That's a long time