It would be so nice just to turn life off, like a video console.

or press reset when things stuff up.....

I appreciate the kind words of support from y'all. I think what helps even more is that someone else not only knows what I mean, but has felt this way too. I am not so alone. Thank you for being generous with your feelings & experiences so that I could know that.

not alone - there are many here who have felt that way, or still do at times....

I am on meds, but nothing really helps.

a change of meds could be an idea - when i was on the first anti-depressant i tried i was still suicidal - the 2nd one turned me into a Zombie, im on Cymbalta now - and that sort of evens things out - i stil get the lows but they are not as low as they were before ... may i ask what meds you are on?

I have physical, emotional & spiritual pain.