I think the point here is that distressed girl is not happy wiht the situation and it is upsetting her - agreed what consentual adults do in BDSM and other fetish's is ok as long as no-one gets harmed and both agree (JMO)

distressed girl - im sorry you are having this problem and wanted you to know that a lot of therapists would be able to deal wiht this - i think if you want it to stop you have to find out the reasons why you have wanted this fantasy for so long - there can be many reasons apart from pleasure - one can be to repeat past trauma - or to punish yourself for what you feel you did as a child - but remember this - children rely on adults to protect them and love themteh right way - when that doesnt happen

when the very ones who should be protecting them damage them be teaching them about sex in an innapropriate way - then allsorts of feelings come into play - if you felt pleasure - then there is usually guilt and the need to be punished - is that what your dark stranger is for? and yet you get pleasure from it because that is how you were taught to receive pleasure - i could be way off the mark here......

anyway - i hope you find the help you seek and that you are able to live your life the way you truly want to live it

take care

P7