thanks Lynn and BPD2- i think it's this taboo approach that leaves me so confused and feeling i have no strategy. Started talking about this with my T today, and she's adopted a long-winded approach. We are going to tap into my strengths-they are already there, just gotta pinpoint them and work on them. They are what have got me thro this in the past. Then i have a week to do homework-highlight times when i've been down and managed to get thro them. Try work out what strengths i emplyed to get thro it. Then bring it to T.
A bit worried about my relationship with T:i told her today how much i craved an emotional connection, but understood it wasnt going to come from her. So it's a very cold and professional relationship. Great if you are in a frame of mind to do some heavy work, but not so much when you're lonely and depressed. I also kind of hope she's have a bit more of an 'out'/solution for those times when i have those thoughts. Oh well-seems like I'm going to have to get a lot stronger, a lot quicker.. Hope this doesnt trigger me