Onward2wards - I enjoyed reading your post and can relate to many things you wrote. I think you're a great observer of your own thinking processes. I used to be very shy when I was younger and most shy sufferers tend to over analyze ourselves and the world around us. This can be a useful tool in understanding yourself and others. Often we're are own worst enemy as well lol - leading to self criticism and self doubt.

I think you're on the right track and don't let anxiety hold you back. We all make mistakes and fumble in life...all part of learning. You need to find the right balance between empathy and assertiveness - that way you can avoid bitterness and isolation. I wasn't happy in the confines of my shyness so I gradually practiced being more sociable and learned how to control the inner critical voice. I can relate to your post and thanks for sharing.