Life comes at you so fast! Where have all the years gone?What am i doing? should i stay here do i go? whats best for them? Him? Me? AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH! I need to cry,why cant i cry?! then im mad and i cry. huh what did the signals get crossed in my brain?! Go to school. go to site. no dont you dont care anyway.fu*$ what do i do? why cant i just make a damn decission on my own?!i hide from my kids in the basement i sit all alone in the almost dark and prefer it to spending time with my kids. what the hell is wrong with me? im almost at the crucial snap point and not having a VENT space (connie) she past a little over a year ago im ready to EXPLODE!