I wonder if it all leads back to abuse....I swear...this whole subject is something I think alot about and ponder the whys...and psychology of it....it does nothing ...in my contemplation...to disuade the desire though.The desire is there..always...and is the flame that lights me up lol......I am not ashamed...it just is....edited this after you posted OOOOmerzzz....ehh...submissive not submissive....no specific preference...just for petes sake...light a GD fire in my heart lol...(sooo used to being married)...I cant do this alone shizz but I will be alone if I cant get some psychological game in the mix.Takes game to grab my attention lol.Gah I forgot who I was b4 I married ...lol scary.