I get REALLY scared when I get sui and having someone to talk to who isn't going to send the cops to my house because I am not thinking right is a big help. Thats what happened the last time I went inpatient... the nurse just hit the panic button. She got so triggered(?) by my scared that she sent the cops to my house, I was put in hand cuffs, the police transport van with some fellon and brought to the hosp. I was in lock down, isolation with all alarms blaring when I got there. I could hear the nurses out side my door talking about how they had been ordered to restrain me either physically or with meds! Finally (with two very intimidating security guards on either side of the door) a nurse ventured in. She told me that I had come in with EVERY "red flag" checked but she thought that maybe I was just scared. Thank God she trusted her instincts over her orders! After my history I don't know if I would have come back out had they restrained me. Had the first nurse just taken the time to figure out I was scared and sui thinking but did not have a plan or means I didn't really need to go. I just wanted an apointment with my pdoc!
But you're right, it is SO hard to find those people who can listen and talk you through it. People who don't panic but will still keep you safe.