I came looking for a chat because I am going through the same thing. And it is complicated because I don't think my partner knows what to do with me anymore. I was diagnosed with bipolar about 6 months ago after a pretty bad breakdown. And now when I am 4 weeks stable, I feel like I am in this constant test and if I fail he is going to leave. He says he does not know if he loves me anymore, that something is now broken. I never thought I would stay in something after someone said that. I can't believe I am finding it so hard to let go.