It depresses me that I'm 29 years old and am still single. I see all my friends getting married and having kids and I feel like a complete outsider. Part of me thinks that no man would ever go for me because I'm too ugly and fat and don't have a lot of confidence in myself. I worry so much about saying the wrong thing or not being interesting enough. I know since I've gained weight (med side effect), I lost a lot of my self esteem and confidence in myself. I went from being this person who had ambition in life, to now being someone who is scared all the time. I'm worried I'll never be confident again to be in a relationship. I've tried online dating but haven't had much luck with it. Physically, I know I feel ready to be dating again.. but emotionally, I don't know. I have so many self esteem issues to work on, but what if they never get better? Does that mean I'll never date again and be single for the rest of my life? I'm so worried about ending up all alone when I'm older. I want kids, I want to be in love and I want to be happy. I know I won't find mr. right on my door step and I need to be active, but I don't know how everyone meets all these great guys. I don't work (disability pension), so I can't meet any guys there. I'm doing school online, so I can't meet guys through there either. I don't go out much because of my anxiety and I don't really know a lot of people. Is the only hope for me online dating? It would be nice if I could find a nice guy who also has anxiety and understands about it. All I know is that I'm miserable being alone and I just want to find a nice guy who loves me for me and not for how I look. Someone who understands my fears and anxiety and won't judge me on it. Someone who will love me unconditionally. Is it just wishful thinking to find that someone?