I found a therapist finally!

But now the hard part is starting. Last night I wrote out all of the abuse and traumatic stuff I have been through. It had more of an effect on me than I thought it would. I've been experiencing flashbacks sporadically all day. My mood keeps getting more and more depressed..it's like I'm finally admitting to myself that stuff really happened. And then I start to get really angry because I shouldn't have had to go through that and I don't understand how my mother can just go on living without a shred of remorse for the things she did. Then I start getting really sad again cuz I did have to go thru all of that and she didn't protect me. Dammit, I'm sitting here at work tearing up. My coworkers are probably thinking I'm nuts. I thought about taking the day off but I don't want to let what happened to me in the past keep me from living in the here and now.

Does anybody have any advice on how to deal with the flashbacks? It's like one memory just keeps leading to another and it's really hurting.