And I don't understand why I feel so scared. I don't even know what it is that is making me feel this way. I'm a grown woman now, I was a child when they did that to me. She is in another state and barely contacts me as it is. I haven't seen her father since I was 13 and there is no way he can contact or have anything to do with me. But I feel so afraid of them still and I don't know why. I hate them so much for doing what they did to me and having these memories and feeling the way I do right now. I know hate is a strong word and it's wrong to have hate for anybody but I'm so confused and don't know what to think. I feel so scared and alone.