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Originally Posted by allme
hey.
I speak with my CPN quite alot about my old t but we dont really seem to be going anywhere with it ...  alot of talking but nothing else.
So old t txt me back... said he had alot going on and would txt me today. But he didnt txt me and have a feeling I have been somewhat dumped. Which, is probably a good thing in a way but not in another as now I feel abandoned and depressed about it I feel like calling or txting him and telling him what a user I think he is and how angry I am with him. If he has any idea what this has done to me, he needs locking up. He has really messed with my head big time and dont know how long it will take me to recover ..... feels like that will be never.
How dare he just pick me up and then throw me away like I never mattered. I am sure if I txt him this stuff he would be back on side but I bet it would only be through fear that I would report him.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR I hate him and I hate me even more right now...... |
I'm so sorry that you're going through so much with this. I can imagine the intensity of those feelings and desires...and the 'what ifs'....it's torture. Please don't hate yourself. Be curious about these desires and work towards figuring out what you need and how you can get it in your life without this T. I know it's hard, so so so hard, but you have been able to do so much so far to get to a healthier place. You are worth it.