Hey there,
sorry I wasn't around wen you first posted. I'm sorry you wnt through such pain. I too have recently left T sessions with "unfinished business" - it hurts and is scary. You think about the session over and over in your head. You need to talk to your T about it - she's the only one that can help you, go easy on you and teach you coping skills.
Well done for looking after yourself to the extent you did

((HUGS))