I got led here from the Mayo clinic site. When I first found it I thought thank god maybe there would be some help for me. But there was no one there to actually give you any advice and those that wrote on it were in the same posistion as me. Depressed wanting to die but we had no answers neither is there any answers here the difference is that on this site more people are here and even if they cant help you can at least read how they deal with stuff. I believe we are being studied. I go read the mayo site still sometimes but as with this site there is no answer to depression its never ending. It scares me I had not expected to still be feeling so awful at this stage in my life. I dont remember good days now just years and years of feeling awful. Its getting worse and I am finding it harder to cope. Depression seems to be effecting more and more people and whats frightening to me is that there does not seem to be a cure we manage as best we can suffering mentally. I dread each day I wake up I try to stay in the now and say things to keep going but most times I just want to fall asleep and not wake up.