Yes, I did stop writing and I do think I was doing too much too soon without realizing it. The grounding techniques are helping immensely. When coming into work this morning, I started having those thoughts again and instead of thinking of the memories, I started looking at colors of objects instead and would think of Queen songs. At one point that wasn't working so I did as you said, Sannah and imagined putting everything in a box and told myself I would come back to it later. All these years, I kept minimizing everything I have been through. Writing down and reading it all has been the first time I really acknowledged the abuse and realized that I did actually go through that. I'm now realizing it wasn't all in my head. I feel good for doing that and feel like I'm no longer lying to myself. I'm very ready to deal with this now but realize this is a slow process and I can't jump into it head on.