Sannah...I cried when I read the child development thing.I am 43...and here I sit stunted and at that same place that a 13 year old walks in...I was on my own at 13...and was my moms mom my whole life.It isn't fair ...it just is.Gah Lizabelle I was gunna post a really grown up thing...try to help...but I am stuck crying for you.Cause I relate?...wanna rescue your burdens?...be there if you need someone?...shaz ...I can't even answer that.I just know my heart is grieving for you.I must say though...if I had half the sense you possess at your age ...or ...hell even now...I'd be ahead of the game of life.Dammit....why am I crying...I have no clue.Cyber hug for you!! ~~~WO.olfsong P.s A young person of your age simply is not structured properly mentally/emotionally to carry these herculean burdens of heart and character...it isn't what your stage of life should entail...and yes I see that obviously should doesn't have a factoring presence in the scheme of things...please receive some outside therapy and organize these issues whilst you are still forming...cause if u don't they will become schemas to be hashed out in middle age therapy sessions....((((((((Lizabelle))))))))