I switch from one coping method to another also. I haven't cut since August, but I don't want to let go of not eating enough and excessive exercising, even though in fact I probably eat enough overall and it's hard to exercise enough in the winter and with my current work schedule. But I tend to do it all at once though. I don't have time to exercise during the week, so I think I should get 5 hours in on Saturday (not that I manage that).

I'm afraid of what I would switch to if I let go of the eating and exercise stuff. I have an idea what it would probably be and it's worse.

What I think it is - these are still all ways to avoid doing something about our actual problems. Maybe if we can face what is wrong in our lives - the way we interact with other people, the way we think of ourselves, what we are doing to work towards the future, etc., then maybe the need to be self destructive will diminish.

Rap