OMG, all of this it totally me too.

Not being able to make decisions comes from my family honestly enough. If we went to a fast food restaurant, the first one of us in line would stare at the menu for 15 minutes trying to decide on something, then each person after that needed an additional 5-10 minutes minumum, and by that time the ones at the beginning would have changed their minds because they thought of something else, or what someone else wanted sounded better. It took a couple of hours just to order!

I'm really struggling with figuring out my identity and who I am. See my "Who Am I" thread in self-esteem if you are interested. Emptiness and lack of identity are big issues for me. I've spent plenty of time wondering if I even exist, and then I get into I don't deserve to exist, and even feel like I'm invisible.

Have you watched "Runaway Bride?" It's a great movie about not knowing who you are.

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