Your old T isn't interested anymore because he likes the "naughtiness" of being with a client in therapy in an inappropriate way. You should report him for what he did with you. He took advantage of you in a horrible way. The relationship was never real. That's why you are so conflicted now about it. You let your guard down, as we all have to do in therapy, and he jumped in and controlled you when he could. Tell him to screw off and report him. You deserve better.