I feel for you so strongly. I myself share an intense love with a deeply troubled girl with unbelievably many issues who lives across the English Channelf from me. Just about everyone but my closest friends believe I am insane to do that. My own mother is appalled at the thought of me trying to plan a future for us both.

Many people may want to give you the same answer I keep getting. Walk away, avoid getting hurt. Accept the fact that its almost impossible to change his life around.

But we can't do that so easily, now can we? Once you have felt this kind of love, its almost impossible to ever go back. And its true, you are spoilt for life and no one else will ever be good enough ever again.

Just like you I am far from figuring out how to handle the situation. Just like yours, my heart tells me to go for it, despite all the odds.
But on the other hand you must never forget to keep looking after yourself. To protect yourself against the pain that pursuing this love is also sure to bring. For me its worth it, but I do not know what your answer will be.

And no matter what you decide to do, make sure that it is your own choice and not that of anyone else. Its your life you are deciding about.

I know I have not been much help other than perhaps to help you put things in perspective.

And maybe its some sort of consolation that, whatever may happen, both you and me have been blessed with something very special that most people will never find in a lifetime.