So this will be my first Christmas without my Grandma. My grandpa died almost exactly 9 years ago and my grandma died this past April. I have been having dreams on and off since she died, and did when my grandpa died also, but the last couple have been extremely weird. Last night I actually had one that they were standing in the kitchen and I was talking to them, but noone else could see them. My sister reminded me that they weren't alive anymore and said that I was hallucinating them and talking to nobody.

These all started because my sister was going through some old photos and found one with my grandma and as soon as I saw it I just started bawling. We literally lived next door to my grandparents for the first 17 years of my life. I saw them everyday, slept over at their house on weekends. I was extremely close to both of them. And a lot of people I guess aren't very close to their grandparents so they don't understand why I miss them so much but we all had very close relationships. I guess I just had to push it in the back of my mind because of school and work and maybe this is my subconscious way of dealing with her death? It about had me waking up crying.