Thanks Byz. I guess I feel like I shouldn't be grieving still 8 months later. I feel like I should be past it. And the past few Christmases and times I have seen her other than that she hasn't known who I was. She had extreme Alzheimer's and wasn't really "there" but it was still good to see her. If I told her who I was and helped her remember she would always be really excited. I guess I just need to focus on remembering all the good times.