[quote=MISERABLE ME;1544428]Ever since I was little and after my real dad was out of the picture. I have always had these feelings for both sexes what I mean is I have always been straight and gone out with women, but I just could not help it when I would see a good looking guy and get those certain urges . . .

Very early childhood experiences have a way of revisiting us later in life. My research is not complete yet but what you seem to suffer from is a narcissistic ideation. Once your father was off the scene you had to rely on yourself and, an image was formed in your mind of the ideal man ie., yourself! As you developed into a normal heterosexual person, occasionally you would see that internal image of yourself -a guy you admired or would like to be like, in fact one who you would like to have sex with - yourself. Many homosexuals have this self love as the core to their sexuality and take a partner who often is a mirror image of themselves- it is self love or masturbation taken to the extreme. An interesting by and by of this theory is dog lovers; take a walk around any dog show and see the amount of owners who look like their dogs. This narcissistic ideation has taken on a companionship role and not that of a sexual lover. I hope this helps to explain your feelings - blame the parents I say most of our **** was their fault Kind Regards Jasmine.