I can understand your fear.
Hopefully learning more about yourself, why you think the things you think...and do the things you do...will help you to relieve some of the fear that is placed on you.
I was dx with BPD many years ago. It is a difficult disorder to get a grip on..no doubt. Remember though...your don't have a sign hanging from your neck that you have BPD. You may feel like someone can see through you...but I bet your walls are as thick and heavy as mine.
It is difficult letting in new people...as well as people you have known for a long time. I struggle all the time with this.
I hope you will use the boards to get out your feelings and talk about your fears.
You can pm me anytime....
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