Thanks to all of you for your supportive answers and for being serious about this. So many people don't understand that photos are like some kind of torture to me.
It already helps to know that I'm not alone with this. And also a really big thanks for the words of encouragement.I needed this and I guess I'm just gonna say no. Cause even the thought makes me feel sick to my stomach, I have a tendency to do things out of feeling guilty about something. In this case it would have been the bet. But you're right, bet or not bet,I don't have to do it!
I enjoyed the post with the tip to hide behind the camera! That's a good one, I used to do that myself. In this case, I'm just going to avoid it though. I know I'm repeating myself here but THANKS to everyone of you.