Hang in there! Remember, when we are depressed, we don't always hear what is being said... even if we do hear the words.. they don't get filed right somehow! Also, when a T calls on the phone they are "caught off base" sometimes... and don't have files and notes and reminders right in front of them to read etc etc.. which they do before a face to face... don't go looking for another job... stay on leave while you are getting help...and let them make the first move... doctors or job ok? I understand pdocs and the "just 15 minutes and precription" which is the norm in US nowdays... and it's good that both docs say no work for now. It's normal to see only the bad or dark side when depressed. You can't expect yourself to be thinking and feeling correctly about anything... right? I mean, the experts are saying you can't even work! One foot in front of the other... slowly... (((((hugs))))