My illness seems to cause me such low self esteem in all my relationships, family, fiance', coworkers,friends, or ppl in general. I am a serious codependent and find that since I have a mental illness while others dont that ,I have caused a problem again. People find me to be a real pushover have told me this all my life. But I dont know how to react when I get angry without getting someone upset so I hold it in. I have worked very hard at changing with books, therapy, medication, and am active with alanon. I wish I could be a normal person so bad.

Thanks and God Bless,
Rainwater