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Dec 10, 2010, 04:50 PM
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Member Since: May 2008
Location: Alabama, USA
Posts: 1,309
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I know it is, I just don't know how much longer it'll go on for and that bothers me. I've let it affect me for 12 years now, so maybe it's time I didn't mourn/grieve anymore? I don't want to feel the pain of the past anymore. Any pain I feel, I want to be pain that is more recent, pain that is from something over the last six months, like the death of my best friend. Not things like the abuse I suffered at the hands of imbeciles as a young child.
Skully, thank you so much. I am so proud of where I have got to after all the abuse I let myself be put through. I deserve so much better and that's why I don't want to grieve the past pains anymore. I guess working hard in therapy will help that? For the past 3 sessions I have just spilled. Spilled and spilled everything about my past. I am continuing to do so, no matter how painful it is. I've needed to do it for so long.
Thank you so much everyone. 
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