Lilac, thanks for the reply. I don't get to these boards often unfortunately.

Medals? They give medals out for surviving this crap? Sheez... I'd be happier with a normal life than an award medal LOL.

I just don't want to be alone this holiday. I really miss my marriage and family life. But my ex turned into a total a--hole.

Blech. Just wish there was a pill we could take and make it all go away!