And it never ceases to amaze me how many people do not really try.

After a particularly challenging (but extremely satisfying) week both work-wise and personally I have been thinking about this a lot.

I really admire what so many people here have been through and conquered and are battling. I think that the site itself serves a fantastic function. I see SO much support and love and kindness here and I thank those who have helped me on many occasions through listening and giving advice. But I also see some elements of negativity, submissiveness, and apathy that aren't really necessary or healthy.

Everyone has the power to change their situation to at least some degree. Why choose to accept something that is ruining your life? You cannot help what you are feeling or who you are. To be unwell in the ways that most people here are is not weak. What IS weak is not helping yourself or accepting help from others. There are so many people here who have so much to give and have gifts that should not go to waste because they are spending most of their life frustrated and unwell.

The thing that I find it difficult to understand is this American system of health insurance - what sort of country lets its people suffer mentally and physically because they cannot afford to get help??????? This is why every time I hear an American say that America is the best country in the world I laugh at them. It's so very, very, sad that there are resources for warmongering, but not for basic healthcare for people who don't deserve to spend their lives unwell simply because of - money.

I guess the point of this is ... well I'm not sure anymore, this post has gone in a way different direction than I originally intended

So here is the challenge. For everyone who reads this post to the end.

Do just one (or more if you have the energy) good or positive thing for yourself in the next few days.

Pick something that will get you further towards being well and happy than you are right now. It might be a very tiny baby step. tell a friend who doesnt know that you arent ok. find out if you can get some more help from whatever you have - medicaid, insurance, whatever. look into doing something that you have wanted to do for a very long time. tell your doctor that you dont think your meds are working, if you have that problem and are too scared to. i dunno - there is such much stuff in my own life that needs doing that i guess i am assuming that it is the same for others

yeah i may have no right to try and tell people what to do in this way, but i thought i would write it down anyway. i wish you all the very very best xxxooo