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Originally Posted by Kymaro
So today I have gone from manic to sever depression in all about 6 hrs. Started my day off busy with lots of things to do and lots of energy to get it all done, in half the time I planned. I knew I was a bit hyper as I was talking to strangers. I even asked the teller at the bank why they didnt put the "list of options for the drive through" in alphabetical order. I remember thinking how irritating it was to be all out of order like that. Driving home from my "duties" today - I would make funny faces at peeps at the stop lights and getting a great laugh out of reactions on their reactions. I WAS having a great day. Then my husband called and started talking to me "about a conversation" we had had this morning about christmas plan and I dont remember the conversation..He says "Your jumping conversation on me I cant keep up with you". I just had so much to tell him! . Now the 20 questions about "did you take your meds" "how long have you been acting like this" etc........He acting like I'm doing and saying things that are irrational! Now Im angry - I feel stupid cuz I dont remember the conversation, is there other things I dont remember? I really don't think Im being irrational. I WAS feeling like I was just having a little fun today, and well deserved as its been a stressfull week at work. He actually came home from work and shoved pills down my throat and now my mother-in-law is here to babysit me. This is freaking WRONG. So the music is a little to load, laughing comes a little to easy, and the simplest of things are entertaining......What the hell is wrong with that! I feel like everyone around me is over reacting and every thing I try to say to defend myself comes out wrong and just makes the whole situation worse. So Im giving up....took their stupid pills, sitting here being quiet, and wishing to hell everyone would just leave me alone! So Im new to this forum and thought I would share my experience today. I've kept it as simple as I can so you dont have to read for an hour.....lol But I guess this is suppose to make me feel like Im not do alone during times like this.
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First off i'd like to say welcome to the forums, i hope they can be a great support to you! As for your situation i think the important think to try and be aware of is well, at least they care about you, it can be frustrating at times when you get the questions about your moods and meds when your just happy or sad but try to remember it come from a place of love and caring, even if it is irritating at the time. i'm with you however i love me a little hypo mania, it sure feels good sometimes especially after a down cycle or long week, but it's also not good all the time, and it can get out of hand quickly, sometimes you don't even realize, so you should feel lucky to know you have someone looking out for your well being! Maybe after a bit of time you can feel differently about it!
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