Well I do still have a job. I know my parents are gonna flip when they hear that. They always tell me they are shocked when I still have a job, like they are hoping for me to lose it and suffer. If I am honest with myself, I will say that I don't think they want me to suffer, they just are not very careful with their words or what they say to me.

I'm scared myself, will I be able to handle it? I tell myself there is no option; I have to make it. Of course I had to make it before. I just need to follow through and call my insurance company and make appointments with a pdoc here in the States and get a T; I can't go without that for sure.

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