Your problem is self-esteem darling but, its not your fault. You have been raised in a society where less than 10% of the world's population take up 100% of the pages in magazines, on TV and on the movies. Reality has it that most are skinny cows, Angelina Jolly has fat lips even without make up, etc etc. (although I don't mind Russel Crow) I know a few folk who do the online dating thing and I even know a few transsexual girls, MOST if not all of them have about 500 or more shots taken before they pick the one they like best. Take up your friends offer and see what he can do for you, you will be surprised what an airbrushing and make up can do. BUT the reality is that its your inner beauty that counts and I'm sure you have that in abundance. Love for now Jasmine.