You let yourself go through that? You were a child, you didn't have a choice.

You probably are grieving because you are letting all of this stuff out in therapy. Please allow the process to work. You are supposed to be grieving while you are spilling all of this stuff. If you try to stop it you will be interfering with the process. If you allow it to happen it will and then you can finally leave it all behind okay. I'm really glad that you are doing this in therapy. This is probably why your life is going well don't you think?