So I wasn't sure whether to put this in the dream section or here... I decided maybe here.

I still haven't SI'd in 5 months. Woot! Also, the painful urges have subsided a lot.

However my issue is, that in the past 2 weeks I've had 3 dreams that scare me and I am pretty certain pertain to my past cutting. The first one, it was an accidental cut. The second one... Well I posted a description of it, asking for ideas earlier titled: "No Heroes". That one I didn't do anything. However in last night's dream was the first time in the dreams that I had to willingly harm myself and draw blood.

I don't know, it's hard enough to fend off the urges and to figure out how to handle my situation, now my subconscious won't leave me alone about it. I don't want to go to sleep and be haunted by something that I did in the past and that I resist doing every day.

So... I'm just wondering if there are any ideas as to why I'm dreaming this, or perhaps how to make the dreams subside? Because they're increasing in vividness and scariness.