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Originally Posted by flawlessimperfectionsmft
This post was pretty much amazing. I know exactly how you feel. I am also very proud of your staying sober. I think it would be best for you to not go there this Christmas. It would compromise your health and that's not what you or anyone on this site wants to happen. I also wanted to say thank you for this post. It is a constant struggle (I will be 9 months sober tomorrow) but I have hope that I can stay clean and sober.  |
thank you, flawless, for your wise and kind words. thank you for reading my long post too! congratulations on your 9 months sober tomorrow! you are already a miracle. it does get easier over "time". wonderful things will happen to you as you continue to stay sober.  i'm 20 years sober and my 20 years have been nothing but wonderful and amazing to say the very least.
i understand the power of addiction my friend has gone thru for 16 years. she would get a little time sober-6 years once-and then take her "will" back, step 3. she may be one of "those unfortunates who cannot be completely honest with themselves", chap. 5, big book. i can only accept what is and that i'm powerless of her actions.
once again thank you for caring about me. 
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The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand
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