I know how you feel. I am also torn. I tend to gravitate towards the native american beliefs and in paginisim. But I also believe in guardian angels which is christian. So I am also stuck in limbo.

The only advice I can give you is to experiment. Read about different religions and study them. In the process you might be able to find what you are looking for. When I studied native american religion, it was like "oh yeah that's what I feel like!" There are many different religions out there. Take the time to study what interests you and maybe you will find your spirtual peace