Irish girl, what you are going through right now is one of the hardest times. You have handed over your existance to tohers, your meds aren't working yet, and you are bound to be feeling really bad, in part from that which is supposed to help you. The others are right, HOLD OUT! SEE IT THROUGH! It will take a while for things to start working and until then you will rpobably feel like you want to die. DON*T. We have been there, dear. And come out the other side, some of us many times. We are all thinking of you dear and holding you gently in our heart right now. Take each moment as it comes. Don't worry about the next, this one has enough to worry about. Safe, warm and compassionate HHHHHUUUUUGGGGGGSSSSSSS from someone who has been there. You are on the way. It just doesn't feel that way yet. Takes a long time for the train to pull away from the station.