It is all my fault that I am in this mess. So I have no right to talk about it. But sometime I get so so sad that I can hardly whole. I can hardly breath. It is these times that I do write a couple of words even though I shouldn't.

Like some people have said: "If you are in a bad situation, there is always a way to get out." Yes there is a way but not without braking hearts. I can't do that. I can't hurt people.

So I'm shutting up. Not talking about it. Shhhhh.....

Thank you for your kindness and caring!