It may not be the contact that you want. Instead, it could be that you are looking for a particular outcome. What are you hoping that he will say or do? Keep in mind that you may not get it. Abusers are very self centered people. How is it going to change things for you if you do not get what you are seeking from him?

Will it provide some resolution for you if you confront him and decide to never see him again? This once again leads back to understanding what you hope the outcome will be from this exchange.