Hello
I am so so sorry that you are feeling this way right now. I do relate to what you are saying and I am listening to you. I know how lonely, sad and hopeless it feels when you feel like that; you are dealing with so many issues and it's hard to imagine not feeling like you do now.

I haven't been here on this site for long, but I can tell you that this place is full of people who completely understand how you feel and are ready to listen. Yes, there are lots of other people who know exactly what you are talking about. I encourage you to share more about yourself and give yourself a break. Right now just take a deep breath and say phew.. I am not alone. One step at a time.