In my case Jazzy's right. It is self esteem, or even more it's the lack of it. I don't "hate" myself, but I really do not like the way I look. If I tell that to people they always think that I'm fishing for compliments.On the contrary, I can't handle 'em! If somebody pays me a compliment, I don't know how to take it. Mostly I'll take it for sarcasm or a lie to be nice. I can't take it seriously, because I know better. Also I'm more used to being verbally attacked, so that I can deal with. Pretty sick, I know. But I am more comfortable with people not addressing my looks at all or if they do, I prefer some bad things. At least then I know they're honest with me.