Yes meds were changed a bit. Still not sure if it was the right discission or not. but I'm hoping it will help. It was for a few days and then the last 3 days happened. I hope to have some professionals to talk to soon but it will have to wait until the new year, and after the move. I will be looking for one that I can see right when I get into the new town. I hope it will help.

As far as being stressed about the move. Yes, I am, veryy stressed. I don't know how everything will work out. I need a stress releiver..... and that's when the urges start agian. Even when I'm writing this, I'm strugling. And the worst part is, the SI went to an extreme... When you start to look at new ways to SI with out cutting, it takes it to an insain level. And it all started with Plinking lights. I hate what this has done to me. My mind isn't even mine anymore. and I"m scared that this will harm my chances of going to school. If this continues. I'm in hot water. SO I guess I have to change this. Some how.

I think everytime this happens, it's caused by me not taking the right meds at the right time. I'm on 3 differnet meds, and I guess I have been taking some at the wrong time. That could bring on the Psycosis... I don't know how I can change the meds to make it easer. SInce one pill cases is green and one is white(clear). Anyone got some ideas of how they keep the pills seprate, and taken at the right time?